For many children, teenagers, and even young adults, it’s time to go back to school. Projects beckon and buying new materials, equipment and clothes are essential. Growing up quite a creative soul, I became rather obsessed with stationary.
Pencils, pens, sketchbooks…Oh so many sketch books, Notebooks. The constant need to feel like I am fully prepared for whatever education demands. I often found myself trawling around shops just art equipment, and would do this more than once a week, and spend far too much.
The only conclusion I’ve found for this is, the illusion of productivity. The idea of going out, tuckering myself out physically, and feeling mentally accomplished by buying stationary in it’s masses. I also found, I’m not the only one that did/does this. It’s a common problem. Well… No problem for the companies that profit from our spending.
This idea that we’re somehow doing something towards our work ethic or contributing to lowering our work load by getting the things we need (Or may just WANT) to get the job done is enough to sit down with a cup of tea and relax for the rest of the day because we’ve done ‘something’, is actually a form of procrastination.
We all know we procrastinate, even on a small scale. Whether it’s a few hours, or weeks, or even months. My worst experience of dealing with this was when I was in my 1st year of university. You often have 3 months to do 2 projects. I found that in those 3 months, I would go to the shop and buy equipment… Then wonder around other shops buying things for myself, get back to my room, nap, and nothing would get done until it hit me that we only had a few weeks left until the dead line. I understand that the grades don’t count towards the final degree, however I do wish I could do things very differently.
Now I’m on a break from university, I’m restless. I find myself looking for things to do, setting myself mini projects to do. And the illusion of productivity returns when I buy things I want for these projects. More sketchbooks, more pens, and more mechanical pencils. It’s a hard habit to crack, and when the “Back To School” sales are on, it becomes very difficult to keep One’s money in One’s pocket. That might be my own problem with self-restraint and control, but sh….
What’s your illusion of productivity?