I’ve been away for a while, I know that and I do apologise to everyone for that. There is, however, I really good reason.
Some of you may know that I was very much struggling with illnesses and infections close to the end of my pregnancy – being in and out of hospital made making art for my other blog, and writing for here, rather difficult.
Well, my pregnancy is over! My beautiful baby girl was born on the 27th November 2016 and was a happy, healthy baby. 13 hours of labour, and no painkillers (how I managed that I do not know!), she arrived, 7.8 ounces and 50 cm long, and a full head of hair!
I’ve had difficulty bonding at first, as it just felt like I was babysitting someone else’s baby. Making the connection from the kicks in my stomach to the crying baby now in my arms has been quite hard for my heart to comprehend, but I’m slowly getting there.
When you have a baby, everyone tells you that you’ll instantly full in love with them the minute they’re in your arms, but it’s not always like that. After birth, you’re still in shock, pain, and dealing with bodily functions that the last 13 hours your body hasn’t been able to do. After my mom cut the cord, and I watch led my dad and brother cry at the sight of her, I did feel a connection. The protective instinct. I wouldn’t let anyone walk around with her, they had to be sat down, or looking over the crib, but I wouldn’t say I was in love yet.
13 days later, I still find it difficult, but the more I look at her, the more I want to hold and kiss her. I just want to do right by her.
So, if you could all join me in welcoming to the world…. Matilda Nyree Elizabeth Williams.